I have been seeing a lot of people wanting to commit sui-cide lately because they think it will take their pain away. Well it will but then you are passing that pain onto your parents and everyone else who cares about you. And I know it's hard, and I know you don't wanna hold on anymore but you have to because yes, it's gonna get harder but it will get better and it will get easier just keep holding on. Just think if you don't hold on you are giving all of your pain and suffering to your parents and I know you don't want anybody to feel the way you feel right now because you know it hurts and you know it hurt not just mentally but physically so just continue to hold on and eventually it will get better and everything will be ok.