What familiar fear does Elie encounter? chapter 8

Chapter 8 of Night

Elie feels tremendous guilt for wishing for his father's death so he can take care of himself. He is ashamed of himself for thinking about his father as a burden. Elie is able to refocus during these times of frustration, and he continues to care for his father until his last days.

you didnt put the link on, so i cant read the paraphrase

- "the die is cast; i have consented to return if we are not destroyed. thus are my hopes blasted by cowardice and indecision; i come back ignorant and disappointed. it requires more philosophy than i possess to bear this injustice with patience. i have lost my hopes of utility and glory; i have lost my friend."