A while back when all my "friends" were dealing with their s**t, I was there for them but I soon found out why I don't keep friends. About a month later when I needed them, I was going through a tough time in my life. (I had just lost my best friend and my gf in the same day and wasn't allowed to attend their funerals because their family's hated me.)they weren't there for me. So I started being cold and unemotional and even stopped eating. My parents just told me to stop faking the REAL pain I was feeling and that it was just a act. I've since stopped trusting my family. I still miss them, my friend and gf but whenever I think back to it. I trusted them more than anyone in my life and think about how happy they were around me and smile.

Read this excerpt from i never had it made. "it's all that ought to count," he replied. "but it isn't. maybe one of these days it will be all that counts. that is one of the reasons i've got you here, robinson. if you're a good enough man, we can make this a start in the right direction. but let me tell you, it's going to take an awful lot of courage." he was back to the crossroads question that made me start to get angry minutes earlier. he asked it slowly and with great care. "have you got the guts to play the game no matter what happens? " "i think i can play the game, mr. rickey," i said. the next few minutes were tough. branch rickey had to make absolutely sure that i knew what i would face. beanballs would be thrown at me. i would be called the kind of names which would hurt and infuriate any man. i would be physically attacked. could i take all of this and control my temper, remain steadfastly loyal to our ultimate aim? which is the central idea of this excerpt?