Should I be concerned that I usually rather spend time with my OCs or myself then my "friends?" (They're not fake or anything its just that I don't really feel like they are my friend, I feel like my only true friend is my bestfriend but our friendship lacks some special connections and we grown distant recently) When I was young I was a very shy kid, I never tried talking to other kids. I would sometimes hear this one kid talk about me behind my back and I met a few other je. rks too. I was usually lonely at recess so I would think and daydream to myself. I thought about them so much that it felt like they were the only people who truly understood me despite never daydreaming of them talking to me, in fact they didn't even know I existed. Even though they ignore me in my thoughts I feel much happier with them then people actually acknowledging my presence. Now I'm not saying I enjoy being alone, most of the time I do but now I'm just being kicked in the back with consequences like mental health issues or lack of social skills because I was lonely most of my life.

Tell me what you think!