Hows this for a rap? this isn't my fault these broken wings can't fix themselves, u know imma soldier now there are no room emotions , these emotions they frozen, frozen in time, these nigqa be laughing, these nigqa be clowns, they don't know that I have no heart. they don't know imma killer. that I got a cold heart. my heart pumps no more, it frozen in time, time itself can't fix it. I have to wear a mask so nobody know how I feel, but I can't smile no more, No one could understand, I had way too much aggression. That built over the years from my abandoned adolescence. See I done been lied to, backstabbed, and heartbroken. I wanted to cry but my heart couldn't open. I'm a soldier now . Trying not to get in my feelings. but my feelings are lost in time While at my nana house I play the couch, starin' at the ceiling. I ask myself where my cousin is. I saw him in a distance blood dripping. he came to me say to stay strong, to be a man to be a real nigqa, to never be afraid to take them risk, cousin he said he loved me, then he died, I can't forgive myself, but my brain can't forgive my heart.