Hey idk what to do anymore. I am just about to give up and I feel like just running off to the woods and live alone at least I can feel like I am not failing anyone. I hate that I am so nice to people and I let people stomp on me like I am nothing and act like it doesn't hurt me. I have been hurt for so long that I don't know what to do anymore I have no real friends in my real life I sometimes feel like I am worth nothing and I am trapped like this but I don't let go I still try and people don't understand that is hurts so bad to the point that I have gone numb. I stay strong just bc I am hoping that it will get better but it doesn't. I cry every night just to let go of everything from the night sometimes I just wish that I never woke up bc of how amazing it is to get away from everything and worry about nothing but it doesn't last forever. I hate this feeling and it is worse bc I can't tell anybody.